Mary is 27 Today!!!

To the Birthday girl!!!

Mary's high school graduation.

Twenty seven years ago today...

Mary and Danny - her first Christmas

I got up and went in for an early morning Dr. appt.

Danny, Amelia and Mary - 1986

I was due in 3.5 weeks to give birth.

It had been a hard pregnancy and I had been confined to bed for 2 months to stop early labor. 

Amelia and Mary 1988

At the appt. the Dr. told me it was safe now and I could get up and start doing things.

So...

on the way home I went shopping.

It had been soooo long since I'd been able to do that.

By the time I got home I had regular contractions.

By 5 pm (or thereabouts) our Mary was born!

The family 1985

Weighing in at 8 lbs and 5 oz. she was whisked away immediately after she was born due to low oxygen levels.

There was lots of whispering among the Dr and nurses.

I was surprised at how "different" she looked compared to my first child, but I was thrilled beyond words that it was a girl.  I'd had some pretty strong feelings about it being a girl and had only brought girl clothes with me to the hospital.

Ready for Pre-school:  Mary, Amelia & cousin Scott

Later, in my hospital room, my pediatrician dropped in to see me.In the gentlest way possible, he informed me of his very strong suspicions that our new baby girl had "Down Syndrome".   He said that even though it couldn't be confirmed until a genetics test, that he was pretty certain.  

Danny, Loren, Amelia & Mary  1993

And then he advised me that the very best thing I could do was to take her home, love her, raise her as I would do my other children, then avail myself of all possible resources and have high expectations for her.

Mary, Rachel & Jessica  1997

His counsel was good, but I was devastated.  

The clothes I had purchased with so much excitement and brought with me to the hospital had been for "another little girl" from my idealized imaginings.  The discrepancy between my expected child and the one that I got was hard to reconcile.  The adjustment was very hard to make.  
 Long story short, we DID made the adjustments and were on our way. 

The girls  - abt 2002

We informed family and loved ones and moved ahead.

Throughout her life, Mary has been a delight and a blessing.

She was the happiest of babies and children, always giggling and chattering.  She was selfless and loving.  I won't lie, we've had some rough patches, but...

She has taught us more than we have taught her, and I am grateful for each and every one of those "life lessons".   It has been a fun ride.

I'm sure you've all heard (a variation of) the story of how a woman planned a 2-week trip to Hawaii.  She prepared, made purchases and boarded the plane, ready for a tropical vacation.  Instead of landing in Honolulu, however, the plane landed in Austria.  

 She was surprised and shocked.  Her ticket was non-refundable.  She hadn't packed the right clothes.  She wasn't informed on all the places to see and things to do in Austria. 
She had a choice.  She could sit in her hotel room and sulk and grumble for the 2 weeks, or she could re-adjust her plans.  She could research Austria and get out and enjoy it's amazing beauty and unique-ness.  She chose the latter.

Well, this is a simplified version of what it's like to have a child with special needs.  It was a surprise and a shock at first, 

At Daniel's graduation from BYU

 But,

it's been a beautiful and amazing and interesting (very) journey thus far.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARY!! 

Here's to many more!

We love you SO MUCH!!

Put Your Shoes On :) Day 2

I'll admit it.

I was a little nervous.

When I handed Mary her shoes and socks this morning, I was afraid of a repeat of yesterdays scenario.  (see http://www.pattyanddanstonefamily.blogspot.com)

So, I handed her some socks.

"Put your socks on please, Mary!"  I said cheerfully.

No response.

I repeated the request - still cheerfully.

This time she shoved the socks off her lap and huffed.

I place the socks back on her lap.

"Mary, put your socks on please!"

This whole conversation was repeated twice and then I hobbled out of the room, humming a song.

When I came back in, she was putting on her socks.

Yay!!

Next, the shoes!!

I place them near her.

"Put your shoes on Mary!" (cheerfully)

You get the picture.

After only 2 requests, she puts her shoes on!

Hooray!!

Of course, I had to tie them, but still!!

Oh yeah, we are makin' some progress!

And she put on her jacket without me asking!

OOPS!!

I accidentally posted Mary's stuff on our family blog today.  

Yep, I'm losing it!!

See http://www.pattyanddanstonefamily.blogspot.com

February = Love month!!

It's been a busy month.  

Lots of activities for Mary.

And 2 bouts with sickness.

Mary was back into the swing of school, when she got hit with the stomach flu for a few days one week, and then later, that upper respiratory thing that's going around.

She still has a bit of a cough from that one.

In between that, we did some fun stuff.

The 2nd week of February, her Special Needs Mutual Organization had a roadshow.

They had been practicing for weeks.

Sadly, I wasn't able to go (my foot was super bad that day) but Dan took lots of pictures and told me all about it.  

Mary really likes Special Needs Mutual.

I remember the first few times she went.

She would scream and cry all the way to the car.

Now she goes so happily and willingly.

Last week, she took off out the door without us!

Now that's progress!!

 Then, her brother and his girlfriend came for a visit.

She doesn't look like it, but she IS having fun.

We did lots of family stuff, plus we went on a picnic to Pioneer park.

  It was a REALLY good weekend with Mary.  

Loren's girlfriend, Samantha, sat and did puzzles with Mary for quite a while.  Mary loved it and was quite animated the rest of the evening! 

She also got to have a Valentine's Party at school!

Here are some pics of Mary's school and friends.

L to R:  Diana (founder & teacher), Jennifer, Mary, Kristen

Kristen & Cindy

Kristen, Cindy, Mary

So, it's been a better month.

Things are looking up!!

Gotta get this off my chest....

On Sunday - in church no less, my teenage daughter overheard some (rude) teen boys making fun of Mary. 

They said she looks like "Frankenstein".

I realize they are "teenage boys", and that both words carry heaps of possible explanations for stupid behavior, but I can't excuse it!  At age 16, all human beings know how powerfully words can hurt.  

It hurt not only Mary, but the rest of us too. 

I really wanted to march over to his house and slap his pimply face!  There, I said it!!

After 27 years, I am still appalled by the amount of people who don't seem to acknowledge that Mary can hear. and understand. and feel. everything!   

On a more positive note, Mary's picture was in the newspaper.  See:   http://www.thespectrum.com/apps/pbcs.dll/section?Category=LIFESTYLE&template=archive&Date=20110207   

(It's  possible that the link won't work because we have the only online newspaper in the US that requires a paid subscription. )  Anyhoo, the reporter came to do an article about the Children of Hope Academy which Mary attends 3 hours a day.  They did a great job - lots of great photos and a nice long article, plus a plug for the 5K Fun Run on March 5th.  

We are having a better week also - more smiles and happiness.  She initiated going home a few days ago.  I got to the school, and on her own, she got her stuff and headed for the door, going out and looking for the car.  ANYthing she initiates is GREAT with me!!

Now that I've vented, I feel much better.

Why in the heck are my paragraphs highlighted??  Hmm...it is what it is. 

The Winter blahs....

A friend of mine has a blog (who doesn't have a friend with a blog?) and she made an entry last month about caring for her elderly and ailing mother-in-law.  

It touched something deep down inside of me.

Plus, I realized that there are people out there living with similar challenges to mine. 

It helps.

This past few months, my state of health has resembled a roller coaster.  One that instead of going high and back to ground level, goes low and back.  Even though I am doing everything I can to correct this situation, ( I'm not here to talk about my health, or my age) I have noticed that Mary regresses during the lows.  She is not making progress at this point.  

And, like my friend,  I wonder what to do.

Would she be better off living with someone who could take better care of her?

Does she resent the fact that I am not always there for her?

Why is she still hidden away in her little "box"?

Why does she refuse to smile?

Am I able to provide for her everything that she needs?

If I could just get someone to come in 1-2 hrs a day to help with her - oh what a difference that could make.  

Mary loves friends.

But they never come by anymore.

Mary has been ill the last 2 days.  Tummy ache, throwing up, fever.  

Today I drove her to school again, something that Dan has been doing for the last few weeks.  Mary was so grumpy looking.  She looks grumpy at me most of the day.

 

I have to admit that it makes me feel sad.

What is it that she needs?  

Since she won't talk, I can only wonder and anguish over that question.

Not so many years ago she was a happy, smiling, giggling girl, who would dance and talk jibberish.

We just HAVE to get that Mary back!!

It's Been Too Long!

Well, we made it through the holidays. 

While all the celebrations are fun, it really gets us 'off-track' with Mary.

Happily, she is still resilient and we are already getting back 'on track'. 

Mary and big little sister Jessica

Big Bro Danny home for Christmas and Mary - waiting for the 'opening of the presents'.

Mary is annoyed, I think, with whatever Loren is saying.  :)

Mary's got a present!!

Gingerbread men decorating.

 

As you can see, while we've maintained some good behaviors, Mary has found a few new debilitating activities.  One is always covering part of her face with her hand.  The other two are:  always touching her tummy - it looks like she's putting her hand in her pants, and laying her face against the wall.   I feel like we get rid of one and she finds two more!

Mary and Rachel taking a walk.

 On a positive note, Mary has gotten better at helping with chores and will now take the trash out to the trashcan all by herself!!